I don't know what flipped the switch, I never do.

I have this pattern in life.... I'll feel really motivated one day and decide to work out. Once I actually do it I realize it's not that bad. The ball starts rolling and one healthy habit leads to another. Before I know it I'm full steam ahead. This lasts for about a month. I'll loose a little weight and decide.... it's okay to have that piece of chocolate cake or.... 1/3 of the cake, and it's alright to skip a few days of working out. Then just as fast as the good habits took over the bad ones creep in and I'm falling deeper into what I call "the hole". I think this routine is semi- normal for women but sometimes wonder why I can't break the cycle. What is wrong with me? is it my past? my genetics? my brain? am I depressed?..... I don't feel depressed.... am I in denial? All of these thoughts swirl in my mind. I think when it comes down to it I just don't give myself enough credit. This is where marrying a man that does give you credit comes in handy. Taylor has been such a motivating factor for me, It's almost like I can see myself through his eyes and I am this strong, talented, unique, beautiful woman that he keeps telling me that I am. He is the "nudge" and the support that I've needed my entire life.

So I'm not sure what flipped the switch this time, the switch that starts the good habits, but I'm glad I'm digging myself out of the hole I was in for a while. I have gone almost a month without soda and I'm exercising pretty much every week day and doing some kind of physical activity on the weekends. I'm not trying anything extraordinary, just slow progress and it feels really good.

I'm taking taekwondo after work on Tuesdays/Thursdays and really enjoying it, its a good way to wake up the body after 8 hours of mind numbing work. I leave feeling energized and strong. On the off days I do yoga. It's a good routine but I think I'm ready to add some different work outs and change up my diet. I still eat some crappy foods, but I'm on my way to eating better.

Today is a slow day at work. End of the month fun.... 8 hours of internet surfing, book reading, bad food wanting, flash game playing, music listening, netflix watching, blog reading, stumbleuponing fun! It sounds nice, but by day 2 i'm done. I visit a lot of photography blogs and man does that sound like the perfect job? The grass is always greener I know, but If I could I would give that a shot for sure. This is actually a serious dream of mine. It would take a lot of work... classes, equipment, money etc. but that's what dreams are for right?

Iron and wine on conan? yes please! sometimes this job is okay I guess.